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Thursday, May 26, 2011

Tree of life!

I was in a beautiful garden with hundreds of big trees where light was shining out of their trunks, the flowers were very colorful and big and the butterflies flitting to and fro hovering over the pretty flowers. The ambiance was just so peaceful and light that you would want to stay there. There were people there, couples actually facing each tree waiting.... for what?

Then I found myself standing also in front of a big tree where light was shining from it.Then it opened and there came out a beautiful baby girl with the name Alyssa Joy and she was my baby. Yes those couples were waiting for their babies to come out. I don't know how to explain it but the baby was mine, it came from me but somehow it came out of a tree.

That was just one of the dreams I have while I was pregnant with my baby who I named Alyssa Joy because I felt and believe that that was the name she wanted. I searched on the net on what Alyssa means and found out it meant "of noble birth". Isn't that something? I don't know how to interpret dreams but most of the time my dreams have significance in my life as I live day by day.

Friday, May 20, 2011

First Picture!

I was six months pregnant when I learned the sex or gender of my baby. Even earlier than that I wanted to know what my baby would be.I prayed for a girl but if I had a boy I would still love him. Lucky for me God was listening and gave me a baby girl. I went and asked my dad for the money for the ultrasound and he gave it to me so off I went to the diagnostic building near my boarding house. My friends were very excited even more than me which was really funny.

It was really something else to see your baby on screen with the head and arms and hands and feet plus hear the heartbeat. Almost made me cry and realize that whoa there is a tiny human in my tummy growing and that we are link together, she can eat what I eat and drink and feel my emotions too. I made it a point then to be always happy and not worry about stuff because I already heard that emotions can have a very big impact on how your baby is gonna turn out when she comes out.

I also had lots of supports from my parents and my sister melody. Since this is my first baby all I have are questions whether this or that is normal and thanks to my sister who already went through pregnancy and motherhood she answers all my questions and tells me what to ask my OB. I really enjoyed being pregnant. Nobody really tells you not to eat and you all know that eating is one of my passions. The special attention also that my friends and family gave me added to that peace of mind I had while I went through the ordeal of pregnancy.

Standing up for 3 hours,walking to and fro and a tad of running was my daily regime for about 8 months until I finished my 1 year culinary course at PSCA ( Philippine School of Culinary Arts) here in Cebu. My friends always makes me sit down or assume some heavy work plus they feed me constantly so I was in food heaven hahahaahh.

Well back to my baby's picture. While the lady was doing the ultrasound the butt was the first thing I saw hahahah it was a very cute butt. She was in footling breach position but I was told not to worry because she is still gonna move into position as it was still early. She was ultrasound shy, she keeps covering her face with her hands but we did get a semi clear picture and she was smiling. When it came for her biometrics the doctor was a guy and so he teasingly said that the baby was shy because her legs where crossed so he wasn't able to get a good view of the genitals. At first he said that it was 88% girl but eventually he said that it was really a girl and I was like so happy.

35 weeks and 6 days later my baby was born in a normal delivery and that is another story.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

2 Lines!

It was the eve of August 27, 2010 at my rented boarding house that 2 Lines made me the happiest woman alive. Yes, you heard me right 2 lines. Who knew right that lines are wonderful things.

Well the story began last August 6, 2010, it was our culinary school's acquaintance party that the big event happened. SEX yes I had sex with my ex boyfriend and weeks after that incident the two lines appeared on the pregnancy test that I took. I didn't expect this at this time of my life but it is a blessing for me because the way I see it my biological clock has been ticking. When I peed on those PT and saw the two line the words that came out where " Oh my God, Oh my God" and I repeated that quite a lot while walking to and fro across my room. I was actually panicking but then I talked to myself and said " Wait. Calm down and sit down" I did sit and then I smiled. Why? Well because I'm gonna have a baby. I love kids so I want to have at least 1 child. I didn't go through the worry crying stage that other unwed mother's do during that time.
I went to the OB myself and had myself checked out. I was told to get some bloodworks and then a urine test to see if there is sugar present since I told her that I have diabetes history in the family. All my test came out normal thank God. She also suggested that I have an ultrasound to know if the pregnancy is in the uterus and not in the tube. Well I went and did that but was fearful because I was pregnant at 6 weeks but there is no baby there so I was told to come back 2 weeks after for fetal viability because the doctor said it could be a blighted ovum. I prayed and prayed that there was a baby and the next time I went I saw my baby for the first time with the heartbeat. It was an awesome feeling. I couldn't explain it.
Now my only problem is how to tell my mom. She wasn't here because at that time my grandfather was hospitalized and she had to be there so it took me about 2 weeks to tell her but i did tell my sister Melody all about my pregnancy. She was disappointed in me at first but I didn't take that against her because that was a normal reaction to have knowing how we were raised as good Catholics and I sort of fell from the tree hahaha. My sister has been supporting me all through out my pregnancy. Anyhow when I told my mom there was a lot of drama involved since there was a lot of crying coz now her baby is having a baby. So there that was the story how those 2 lines affected our lives.