Graduation over!

My culinary graduation was held last June 22,2011 and that was a blast. My mom and stepdad and of course my baby girl Alyssa was with me on this joyous occasion . My friends and classmates who were on their OJT came over to greet me and be with me too during this event in my life.

I also got 2 awards which was the Student leadership award and the service recognition award and I'm so happy to have graduated. Hopefully I can proceed to the diploma one.

Graduation!

June 22 is the big day. You may ask me why. Ok I'm asking why? Well it is the day of my graduation for the completion of my 1 year course in culinary arts. Yipeeee I am done. My dad won't be attending because he said he has an important meeting to attend to. That's ok too since my mom and stepdad will be there with me as well as my friend Gail and my cousin Dominic. I am really excited to graduate and then I will be starting work soon too so I'm really happy. Will have graduation portrait taken soon so will be posting it in the coming days.

Baby was fussing today while I was out my mom told me. I don't know but somehow when I go out she fusses a lot. Hmmm maybe she wanted to go with me? What do you think?

CSI fever!

I love CSI show, really really love it. I watch all of it from Las Vegas to Miami to New York. I love all the characters and my all time favorite CSI show is the Las Vegas one. Laurence Fishburne does an awesome job at it that's why it saddens me to know that he is leaving the show. It really won't be the same without him. I loved Grissom the most because he was weird in a genius kinda way but Dr. Raymond is different he brings class and intensity to the show and I would really miss that.

Together Forever!

I was browsing through some news here on the web and found one that caught my attention. In my past blogs I wrote about becoming a new mommy. I always thought that when one gets pregnant she becomes connected to her son or daughter in more ways than one. I always used to believe that mother's know best and that is one of the reasons why while I was growing up I rarely go out with friends or anyone without consulting my mom because I believe that if she says no to me then she was just looking out for me you know like preventing me from being in any accidents or bad situations, mother's instinct as we call it and I don't mean to say that this connection only exist between mother and daughter because it does exist between siblings too.

I was so touched when I read about the article between twin brothers who were both priests. People said in the article that they were just simple people who lived simple lives and that they often did everything together. They give a different meaning to the word doing it together and if you want to know what I meant then read the article yourselves. Life is a wonder isn't it?

Angel VS. Devil

This blog is still about dreams. I don't know why but while I was pregnant with Baby Alyssa I kept having this weird dreams, the first one being the Tree of Life and now it's all about Angel versus Devil kind.

I dreamed of my guardian angel who happens to be the Prince of the Heavenly Hosts. Yes you got that right he is none other than St. Michael the archangel. I never really thought that he could be my guardian angel. I can't remember all the happenings in the dream but I'm gonna write the things that I do remember.

I saw St. Michael's face in my dream he was very handsome and tall and although I can't stop looking at him he doesn't have this lust after me kind of handsomeness to it. I can't explain it well but I found that I was just so mesmerized by him and yet wasn't lusting after him. And yes he was that handsome. Well on with the story, I remember he said "Your baby is important" I really don't know what he meant when he said that but I just took it as it was. I saw his mortal and angel form and boy he was so big and tall and shiny or should I say glowing.

The next scene was Michael in my family. He seemed to be a member of it and yet it wasn't him. I felt something different. He was very nice and good and saint like even but I just felt something amiss. Then I saw another man this time he wasn't handsome but he was big and strong yet he was gentle and he told me he was Michael. I was really confused since I saw the Michael I talked to within my family circle. He was insistent yet not forceful. He told me that the one with my family is not who he says he is. He then told me something but I don't remember exactly but the gist of it was that false prophet will be sent or will present himself. He told me to trust my instinct and my faith in the Father.

And so the next scene was me with the Michael in my family who was very charismatic and nice that everyone was eating right out of his hands and in this dream my baby already existed I mean she was already born and this being kept or wants to be very close with my daughter. I did pray to the Father for guidance on what I should do? Who should I believe, the one who looks like him in all ways or the other one who looked like a hoodlum?

I pondered and remembered myself praying and then the next scene was me piercing Michael in the heart with a long sword. As I did this I felt relieved yet afraid but then Michael as an Angel appeared again full battle gear. He didn't say anything to me but he looked at me and smiled and I felt that I had his approval and then I woke up with my baby moving in my tummy.

I don't know what to make of this dream but I know I will eventually know.

Tree of life!

I was in a beautiful garden with hundreds of big trees where light was shining out of their trunks, the flowers were very colorful and big and the butterflies flitting to and fro hovering over the pretty flowers. The ambiance was just so peaceful and light that you would want to stay there. There were people there, couples actually facing each tree waiting.... for what?

Then I found myself standing also in front of a big tree where light was shining from it.Then it opened and there came out a beautiful baby girl with the name Alyssa Joy and she was my baby. Yes those couples were waiting for their babies to come out. I don't know how to explain it but the baby was mine, it came from me but somehow it came out of a tree.

That was just one of the dreams I have while I was pregnant with my baby who I named Alyssa Joy because I felt and believe that that was the name she wanted. I searched on the net on what Alyssa means and found out it meant "of noble birth". Isn't that something? I don't know how to interpret dreams but most of the time my dreams have significance in my life as I live day by day.

First Picture!

I was six months pregnant when I learned the sex or gender of my baby. Even earlier than that I wanted to know what my baby would be.I prayed for a girl but if I had a boy I would still love him. Lucky for me God was listening and gave me a baby girl. I went and asked my dad for the money for the ultrasound and he gave it to me so off I went to the diagnostic building near my boarding house. My friends were very excited even more than me which was really funny.

It was really something else to see your baby on screen with the head and arms and hands and feet plus hear the heartbeat. Almost made me cry and realize that whoa there is a tiny human in my tummy growing and that we are link together, she can eat what I eat and drink and feel my emotions too. I made it a point then to be always happy and not worry about stuff because I already heard that emotions can have a very big impact on how your baby is gonna turn out when she comes out.

I also had lots of supports from my parents and my sister melody. Since this is my first baby all I have are questions whether this or that is normal and thanks to my sister who already went through pregnancy and motherhood she answers all my questions and tells me what to ask my OB. I really enjoyed being pregnant. Nobody really tells you not to eat and you all know that eating is one of my passions. The special attention also that my friends and family gave me added to that peace of mind I had while I went through the ordeal of pregnancy.

Standing up for 3 hours,walking to and fro and a tad of running was my daily regime for about 8 months until I finished my 1 year culinary course at PSCA ( Philippine School of Culinary Arts) here in Cebu. My friends always makes me sit down or assume some heavy work plus they feed me constantly so I was in food heaven hahahaahh.

Well back to my baby's picture. While the lady was doing the ultrasound the butt was the first thing I saw hahahah it was a very cute butt. She was in footling breach position but I was told not to worry because she is still gonna move into position as it was still early. She was ultrasound shy, she keeps covering her face with her hands but we did get a semi clear picture and she was smiling. When it came for her biometrics the doctor was a guy and so he teasingly said that the baby was shy because her legs where crossed so he wasn't able to get a good view of the genitals. At first he said that it was 88% girl but eventually he said that it was really a girl and I was like so happy.

35 weeks and 6 days later my baby was born in a normal delivery and that is another story.

2 Lines!

It was the eve of August 27, 2010 at my rented boarding house that 2 Lines made me the happiest woman alive. Yes, you heard me right 2 lines. Who knew right that lines are wonderful things.

Well the story began last August 6, 2010, it was our culinary school's acquaintance party that the big event happened. SEX yes I had sex with my ex boyfriend and weeks after that incident the two lines appeared on the pregnancy test that I took. I didn't expect this at this time of my life but it is a blessing for me because the way I see it my biological clock has been ticking. When I peed on those PT and saw the two line the words that came out where " Oh my God, Oh my God" and I repeated that quite a lot while walking to and fro across my room. I was actually panicking but then I talked to myself and said " Wait. Calm down and sit down" I did sit and then I smiled. Why? Well because I'm gonna have a baby. I love kids so I want to have at least 1 child. I didn't go through the worry crying stage that other unwed mother's do during that time.

I went to the OB myself and had myself checked out. I was told to get some bloodworks and then a urine test to see if there is sugar present since I told her that I have diabetes history in the family. All my test came out normal thank God. She also suggested that I have an ultrasound to know if the pregnancy is in the uterus and not in the tube. Well I went and did that but was fearful because I was pregnant at 6 weeks but there is no baby there so I was told to come back 2 weeks after for fetal viability because the doctor said it could be a blighted ovum. I prayed and prayed that there was a baby and the next time I went I saw my baby for the first time with the heartbeat. It was an awesome feeling. I couldn't explain it.

Now my only problem is how to tell my mom. She wasn't here because at that time my grandfather was hospitalized and she had to be there so it took me about 2 weeks to tell her but i did tell my sister Melody all about my pregnancy. She was disappointed in me at first but I didn't take that against her because that was a normal reaction to have knowing how we were raised as good Catholics and I sort of fell from the tree hahaha. My sister has been supporting me all through out my pregnancy. Anyhow when I told my mom there was a lot of drama involved since there was a lot of crying coz now her baby is having a baby. So there that was the story how those 2 lines affected our lives.

It's been ages!

Wow! I can't believe it's been ages since I have written in my blog. In just a few months and it will be a year. It's very very bad for me. Well I hope to change all that and start writing again. I now have a lot to write about since I started studying culinary arts. It's been 9 months since I started to attend and I'm really loving it. I got good grades and I am not tooting my own horn in this lol. I met a lot of new and interesting people who are my friends now. Plus I have additional news too I'm about to become a mommy. Yipeeee! It's very exciting and frightening at the same time. Half the time I don't know what to do or if what I'm feeling is all natural. I guess it all comes out or pre motherhood jitters. I do look forward to meeting my baby soon. I really wish and pray to God that she will be healthy and strong and that I will be able to deal with everything even though I'm going through this as a single mom. Well that's all for today folks. I post new ones in the coming weekend when I can get a hold of a computer.